Today — I celebrate twenty years as an ordained priest. Reflecting on one’s experience in ministry can be a risky endeavor. I share these thoughts inviting the wisdom and insight of those who read this blog.
My life as a priest has been unique and filled with surprising moments. On a day such as this, many of these memories greet me for celebration and reflection.
We planned my ordination for May the 8th to correlate with the feast day for Dame Julian of Norwich. A holy woman – devoted and faith-filled, Julian lived in the middle ages during a time of plagues and war. While struggling with a life–threatening illness she experienced a compelling and personal encounter with God. Surviving – she knew the gift of health and life and vowed to live a mystic’s life. Most of her adult life was spent living in a small room connected to a church in Norwich, England. Like an anchor to a boat, Julian anchored herself to the church. From her room, through a small window, she met and counseled people who came to her, offering comfort and holy wisdom to the village of Norwich and beyond. Within one room, she counseled those in need, spent hours in prayer and put into words her insights about God’s love and mercy. These writings would come to be known as: Showings – The Revelations of Dame Julian of Norwich. It is believed that she was the first woman to have her writings published in English.
We planned my ordination for May the 8th and welcomed the communion of the saints led by Dame Julian. Twenty years later I find myself curious about the connection between my ordination and Julian’s feast day. Being a woman and a person with a disability, living my life as a priest would present unknown challenges for me and others. As time has passed I know my ministry has been filled with courage and grace. Courage–unashamed of my differences, I have entered doorways into churches and homes that had previously not been opened either to women or people with disabilities . Grace- all has been possible through a vision beyond me.
Anchored in her one-room home, Julian of Norwich shared her wisdom and faith with confidence and compassion. Her story has been encouragement and inspiration for me. I know something of being held in one place–anchored if you will. From this wheelchair I have been present to people in their joy and sorrow, prayerfully spreading God’s good news.
In many ways twenty years is just the beginning! What have I learned up to now? I have learned there are many more questions than there are answers and much of our time is spent learning to live with the questions. I have learned that while we live in a world wrought with anxiety, people long for the presence of peace–not a lot of words just peace. I have learned that miracles do not always manifest as we might have envisioned but miracles they remain. I have learned to be grateful for hope and honesty in moments of despair.
Most important, I continue to reflect on the wisest words ever shared from Dame Julian. “All shall be well, all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.” We do not get to know how life’s story ends. Carrying these gentle words along the way has brought light for the journey.
i celebrate this anniversary with and for you – with so much gratitude.
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Thank you for the image!! And for you. Peace.
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I think this is your best post ever! Thank you! And blessings to you on this anniversary of your ordination.
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Hi! Thank you for these kind words. Blessings.
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Congratulations on your ordination anniversary, Carrie. You continue to be a blessing to many through your writing and sharing on your blog.
Blessings and peace to you,
Bruce
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Thank you, Bruce. Your encouragement and support means so much. Peace.
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So beautiful Carrie. You have certainly broken barriers in your life. Love, Lita
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Thank you. You know something about this way through life as well!! We have had amazing role-models.
Sending love.
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Thank you Carrie!
You always inspire us, especially on your 20th anniversary.
I’m happy that you chose Dame Julian.
Over a year ago I joined the online Friends of Julian based in Norwich.
I always sense that you agree with Dame Julian that God’s judgment is different from the Church’s (and less stringent) in the eternal time mode.
There and then “All Shall be well!”
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Congratulations Carrie!
I too love to read Dame Julian’s Showings.
I joined the Norwich Friends of Julian last year.
I believe, as Julian hinted in her vision of Christ’s wound in His side, that there is room
for everyone.
That’s what I wanted to describe in terms of a catholic universal theology.
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Happy anniversary! Many more happy years in the Lord’s vineyard.
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Thank you.
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